cunfused's Journals on Buzznet http://cunfused.buzznet.com/user/journal/ en-us <![CDATA[Please Pray!!]]> http://cunfused.buzznet.com/user/journal/90381/ > Some of you have probably heard already, but I have to go to the
hospital
> in Denver to finish out my pregnancy.  There are some major
> complications..  I have included the letter my husband wrote to our
> friends and family so that I wouldn't have to type everything again. 
I
> will miss all of you (and even the kids) and truly need your prayers.
> Please read the following letter as it will explain all in detail
what is
> going on...and for those of you who will join us in prayer.  We need
it!
> I hope to see you all again soon! - Katie
>
> Hello Everyone,
>
>    As many of you have already heard, Katie and I are pregnant,
expecting
> our first child.  It has been a very rocky road over the last 4
months as
> we have had several complications and Katie has even been on bed rest
a
> couple of times already.  Starting in November we finally received
good
> news when the doctors told us we would probably carry the baby to
> full-term.  Last Tuesday, we went in for a routine ultrasound and
things
> suddenly changed.  We were taken to the hospital Tuesday night were
tests
> were performed on Katie and then went to Denver the next day for
> Appointments with specialists down there.  The doctor who did the
> ultrasound encouraged us to terminate pregnancy so we needed a second
> opinion.
>    We met with a great doctor from Presbyterian St. Luke's Children's
> hospital who finally gave us some hope.  He said there is definitely
no
> amniotic fluid around the baby and it is very scary and the chances
of a
> healthy baby or baby at all are not good.  The amniotic fluid is what
> develops the lungs and right now there is no sign of lungs.  They
usually
> develop around 18-24 weeks and Katie is at 22 weeks now.  They
suspect her
> "Water" broke (the amniotic fluid) about 3-4 weeks ago, which is
right
> when the lungs would have started to develop.  However, the baby is
> healthy right now and he said, there is a chance.  We told him we
believe
> in a God of more than just chances, but one who is capable of
miracles and
> he said that is what it would take!  Katie will be admitted to the
> hospital in Denver on January 4th for 10 weeks.  There will be a
monitor
> on her and the baby to make sure they both stay stable.  If anything
goes
> wrong they will immediately do a c-section.  Usually the body goes
into
> labor within 48 hours after the water breaks.  This has not happened
for
> the last 4 weeks and we are praying it doesn't for another 12 weeks.
>
>    So, right now I am asking you to pray!  Pray like it is going to
> happen, not like it might!  With no amniotic fluid around the baby
there
> is high risk of infection for both the baby and Katie.  This is my #1
> prayer request!!!  With everything that has gone on, the doctors
think we
> are having a little girl.  We have decided to call her Faith!, which
is
> what it takes right now!
>
> If you will pray, please pray in this order:
>
> 1.  No infection for Katie or baby Faith!
>
> 2.  Faith's lungs develop and she continues to produce Amniotic fluid
so
> her kidney's don't shut down.
>
> 3.  Katie does not go into Labor for at least 12 more weeks, so Faith
will
> continue to grow and develop.
>
> 4.  Patience and faith for us as we pray and wait for the next 12
weeks.
>
> Thank you for joining with us as we take this baby and my wife before
the
> Lord.  Will you join us in praying with authority, faith and great
> confidence!
>
> God bless you so much,
>
> Pastor Charley, Katie, and baby Faith.
>
]]> Buzznet cunfused 2006-12-25T14:42:38Z <![CDATA["Dear Friend" By Stacie Orrico]]> http://cunfused.buzznet.com/user/journal/41128/ You don’t laugh the way you used to
But I've noticed how you cry
Dear friend, I feel so helpless
I see you sit in silence
As you face new pain each day
I feel there’s nothing I can do
I know you don’t feel pretty
Even though you are
But it wasn’t your beauty
That found room in my heart

Dear friend, you are so precious Dear Friend

Dear friend, I'm here for you
I know that you don’t talk too much
But we can share this day anew
Dear Friend, please don’t feel like you're alone
There is someone who is praying
Praying for your peace of mind
Hoping joy is what you'll find
I know you don’t feel weak
Even though you are
But it wasn’t your strength
That found room in my heart
Dear friend, you are so precious, Dear Friend
]]> Buzznet cunfused 2006-08-04T09:29:15Z <![CDATA[NOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!]]> http://cunfused.buzznet.com/user/journal/28618/ Buzznet cunfused 2006-06-15T09:35:52Z <![CDATA[I got this in an e-mail]]> http://cunfused.buzznet.com/user/journal/26462/ THIS IS BEAUTIFUL .AND YOU WILL CRY...

Sally jumped up as soon as she saw the surgeon come out of the operating room. She said: "How is my little boy? Is he going to be all right? When can I see him?"

The surgeon said, "I'm sorry. We did all we could, but your boy didn't make it.."

Sally said, "Why do little children get cancer? Doesn't God care any more? Where were you, God, when my son needed you?"

The surgeon asked, "Would you like some time alone with your son? One of the nurses will be out in a few minutes, before he's transported to the university."

Sally asked the nurse to stay with her while she said good-bye to son. She ran her fingers lovingly through his thick red curly hair.

"Would you like a lock of his hair?" the nurse asked.

Sally nodded yes. The nurse cut a lock of the boy's hair, put it in a plastic bag and handed it to Sally. The mother said, "It was Jimmy's idea to donate his body to the university for study. He said it might help somebody else. "I said no at first, but Jimmy said, 'Mom, I won't be using it after I die. Maybe it will help some other little boy spend one more day with his Mom." She went on, "My Jimmy had a heart of gold. Always thinking of someone else. Always wanting to help others if he could."

Sally walked out of Children's mercy Hospital for the last time, after spending most of the last six months there. She put the bag with Jimmy's belongings on the seat beside her in the car. The drive home was difficult. It was even harder to enter the empty house. She carried Jimmy's belongings, and the plastic bag with the lock of his hair to her son's room. She started placing the model cars and other personal things back in his room exactly where he had always kept them. She laid down across his bed and, hugging his pillow, cried herself to sleep.

It was around midnight when Sally awoke. Laying beside her on the bed was a folded letter. The letter said:

"Dear Mom, I know you're going to miss me; but don't think that I will ever forget you, or stop loving you, just 'cause I'm not around to say I LOVE YOU. I will always love you, Mom, even more with each day. Someday we will see each other again. Until then, if you want to adopt a little boy so you won't be so lonely, that's okay with me. He can have my room and old stuff to play with. But, if you decide to get a girl instead, she probably wouldn't like the same things us boys do. You'll have to buy her dolls and stuff girls like, you know. Don't be sad thinking about me. This really is a neat place. Grandma and Grandpa met me as soon as I got here and showed me around some, but it will take a long time to see everything. The angels are so cool. I love to watch them fly. And, you know what? Jesus doesn't look like any of his pictures. Yet, when I saw Him, I knew it was Him. Jesus himself took me to see GOD! And guess what, Mom? I got to sit on God's knee and talk to Him,! like I was somebody important. That's when I told Him that I wanted to write you a letter, to tell you good-bye and everything. But I already knew that wasn't allowed. Well, you know what Mom? God handed me some paper and His own personal pen to write you this letter. I think Gabriel is the name of the angel who is going to drop this letter off to you. God said for me to give you the answer to one of the questions you asked Him 'Where was He when I needed him?' "God said He was in the same place with me, as when His son Jesus was on the cross. He was right there, as He always is with all His children.

Oh, by the way, Mom, no one else can see what I've written except you. To everyone else this is just a blank piece of paper. Isn't that cool? I have to give God His pen back now. He needs it to write some more names in the Book of Life. Tonight I get to sit at the table with Jesus for supper. I'm, sure the food will be great.

Oh, I almost forgot to tell you. I don't hurt anymore. The cancer is all gone. I'm glad because I couldn't stand that pain anymore and God couldn't stand to see me hurt so much, either. That's when He sent The Angel of Mercy to come get me. The Angel said I was a Special Delivery! How about that?

Signed with Love from: God, Jesus &Me. Let's see Satan stop this one. Take 60-seconds and send this to five other people, within the hour, you will have caused a multitude of believers to pray to God for each other. Then sit back and feel the Holy Spirit work in your life for doing what you know God loves

]]> Buzznet cunfused 2006-06-05T19:58:54Z <![CDATA[http://www.00fun.com/]]> http://cunfused.buzznet.com/user/journal/11785/   I Love You More Than Words Could Ever Express.
You Are The Life In Me.
     You've Given Me Feelings I Have Never Felt Before.
I Love The Way You Make Me Feel.
     I Am So Happy Being With You, And So Blessed To Know You.
Without You, I Would Be Nothing.
     You Hold All Of My Hopes And Dreams Inside Of You;
And For That, I Will Always Love You.
           ]]> Buzznet cunfused 2006-02-10T17:33:28Z <![CDATA[For the girls]]> http://cunfused.buzznet.com/user/journal/8328/ >>
>>    A young wife sat on a sofa on a hot humid day, drinking iced
>>tea and visiting with her Mother. As they talked about life, about
>>marriage,  about the responsibilities of life and the obligations of
>>adulthood, the  mother clinked the ice cubes in her glass thoughtfully
>>and turned a clear,  sober glance upon her daughter.
>>
>>    "Don't forget your Sisters," she  advised, swirling the tea
>>leaves to the bottom of her glass." They'll be  more important as you
>>get older. No matter how much you love your husband,  no matter how much
>>you love the children you may have, you are still going  to need
>>Sisters.
>>    Remember to go places with them now and then; do things  with
>>them. And remember
>>    that "Sisters" also means your girlfriends, your  daughters, and
>>other women relatives too. You'll need other women. Women  always do."
>>
>>    'What a funny piece of advice!' the young woman  thought.
>>
>>    'Haven't I just gotten married? Haven't I just joined the
>>couple-world?  I'm now a married woman, for goodness sake!  A  grownup.
>>Surely my husband and the family we may start will be all need to  make
>>my life worthwhile!
>>
>>    But she listened to her Mother. She kept  contact with her
>>Sisters and made more women friends each year. As the years  tumbled by,
>>one after another, she gradually came to understand that her Mom  really
>>knew what she was talking about. As time and nature work their  changes
>>and their mysteries upon a woman, Sisters are the mainstays of her
>>life.
>>
>>    After over 60 years of living in this world, here is what
>>I've learned:
>>
>>    Times passes.
>>    Life happens.
>>    Distance  separates.
>>    Children grow up.
>>    Love waxes and wanes.
>>    Hearts  break.
>>    Careers end.
>>    Jobs come and go.
>>    Parents die.
>>    Colleagues  forget favors.
>>    Men don't call when they say they will.
>>
>>    BUT Sisters  are there, no matter how much time and how many
>>miles are between you. A  Sister is never farther away than needing her
>>can reach.
>>
>>    When you  have to walk that lonesome valley, and you have to
>>walk it for yourself,  your Sisters will be on the valley's rim,
>>cheering you on, praying for you,  pulling for you, intervening on your
>>behalf, and waiting with open arms at  the valley's end. Sometimes, they
>>will even break the rules and walk beside  you. Or come in and carry you
>>out.
>>
>>    My mother, sister, sister-in-laws,  and "girlfriends" bless my
>>life!
>>
>>    The world wouldn't be the same  without them, and neither would
>>I.
>>
>>    When we began this adventure  called womanhood, we had no idea
>>of the
>>    incredible joys or sorrows that  lay ahead.
>>
>>    Nor did we know how much we would need each other. Every  day,
>>we need
>>    each other still.
>>
>>    Pass this on to the women who help  make your life work.
>>
>>    I just did.
 ]]> e-mails thoughts Buzznet cunfused 2005-12-16T18:07:53Z <![CDATA[Life]]> http://cunfused.buzznet.com/user/journal/7994/    Life is the best thing in the world... Its full of laughter, happy people/

But life breings you things you dont want like hate, lonlyness and so much more.

But what ever life breings you love it and enjoy it... Dont spend your life on the safe side and try to be perfect if you do that then whats the point of life... Live Life To The Fullest

]]> Buzznet cunfused 2005-12-10T23:18:39Z <![CDATA[E-mail from Krimson]]> http://cunfused.buzznet.com/user/journal/7201/

My name is Sarah
I am but three,
My eyes are swollen
I cannot see,


I must be stupid,
I must be bad,
What else could have made
My daddy so mad?

I wish I were better,
I wish I weren't ugly,
Then maybe my Mommy
Would still want to hug
me.

I can't speak at all,
I can't do a wrong
Or else I'm locked up
All the day long.

When I awake
I'm all alone
The house is dark
My folks aren't home.

When my Mommy does come
I'll try and be nice,
So maybe I'll get just
One whipping tonight.

Don't make a sound!
I just heard a car
My daddy is back
From Charlie's Bar.

I hear him curse
My name he calls
I press myself
Against the wall.


I try and hide
From his evil eyes
I'm so afraid now
I'm starting to cry.

He finds me weeping
He shouts ugly words,
He says its my fault
That he suffers at


work.





He slaps me and hits me
And yells at me more,
I finally get free


And I run for the door.

He's already locked it
And I start to bawl,
He takes me and throws me
Against the hard wall.

I fall to the floor
With my bones nearly broken,
And my daddy continues
With more bad words spoken.

"I'm sorry!", I scream
But its now much too late
His face has been twisted
Into unimaginable hate.

The hurt and the pain
Again and again
Oh please God, have mercy!
Oh please let it end!

And he finally stops
And heads for the door,
While I lay there motionless
Sprawled on the floor.

My name is Sarah
And I am but three,
Tonight my daddy
Murdered
me.



There are thousands of kids out there just like Sarah. And you
can help...
It sickens me to my soul, and if you just read this and don't
pass it on I pray for your forgiveness, because you would have to be one
heartless person to not be affected by this email. And because


you are affected, do something about it!! So all I am asking you to


do is take some time to send this on and acknowledge that this stuff does


happen, and that people like her dad do live in our society, and pray


for child abuse to wither out and die, but also pray for the safety of our youth.


Please pass this poem on as a Blue Ribbon Against Child Abuse
because as crazy as it might sound, it might just indirectly change a life.
Hey, you NEVER know. Please forward if you are


*~*~*AGAINST CHILD ABUSE *~*~
]]> Buzznet cunfused 2005-11-27T14:40:33Z <![CDATA[um its a thing someone sent me]]> http://cunfused.buzznet.com/user/journal/6305/

Sacred Heart of Jesus, today I wish to live in You,
in Your grace, in which I desire at all costs to persevere.

Keep me from sin and strengthen my will by helping me to
keep watch over my senses, my imagination,
and my heart.

Help me to correct my faults which are the source of sin.

I beg You to do this, O Jesus, through Mary, Yours and
our Immaculate Mother.
Amen

O Blood and Water which gushed forth
from the Heart of Jesus as a fountain
of mercy for us,
I trust in You

You expired Jesus, but the source of life
gushed forth for souls, and an ocean of mercy
opened up for the whole world.

O Fountian of Life, unfathomable Divine Mercy
envelop the whole world and empty
Yourself out upon us

I asked God for strength,
that I might achieve......

I was made weak,
that I might learn humbly to obey.

I asked for health,
that I might do greater things....

I was given infirmity,
that I might do better things.

I asked for riches,
that I might be happy.....

I was given poverty,
that I might be wise.

I asked for power,
that I might have the praise of men......

I was given weakness,
that I might feel the need of God.

I asked for all things,
that I might enjoy life.......

I was given Life,
that I might enjoy all things

I got nothing that I asked for,
but everything I had hoped for.

Almost despite myself,
my unspoken prayers were answered.

I am amoung all men,
most richly blessed!

Keep us, O God, from all pettiness.
Let us be large in thought, in word, in deed.

Let us be done with fault-finding
and leave off all self-seeking.

May we put away all pretense and meet
each other face to face,
without self pity and
without prejudice.

May we never be hasty in judgement
and alway be generous

Let us always take time for al things,
and make us to grow calm
serene and gentle.

Teach us to put into action our better
impulses, to be straightforward
and unafraid.

Grant that we may realize that it is
the little things of life that
create difference, that in the
big things of life, we are as one.

And, O Lord God, let us not forget to be Kind!

]]> Buzznet cunfused 2005-11-12T06:31:52Z <![CDATA[From grandma donna to you all to see.]]> http://cunfused.buzznet.com/user/journal/5510/ 10 Guidelines From God   Effective immediately, please be aware that there are changes YOU need to make in YOUR life. These changes need to be completed in order that I may fulfill My promises to you to grant you peace, joy and happiness in this life.  I apologize for any inconvenience, but after all that I am doing, this seems very little to ask of you. Please, follow these 10 guidelines:   1. QUIT WORRYING:
Life has dealt you a blow and all you do is sit and worry. Have you forgotten that I am here to take all your burdens and carry them for you? Or do you just enjoy fretting over every little thing that comes your way?   2. PUT IT ON THE LIST:
Something needs done or taken care of. Put it on the list. No, not YOUR list. Put it on MY to-do-list.  Let ME be the one to take care of the problem. I can't help you until you turn it over to Me. And although My to-do-list is long, I am after all... God. I can take care of anything you put into My hands. In fact, if the truth were ever really known, I take care of a lot of things for you that you never even realize.   3. TRUST ME:
Once you've given your burdens to Me, quit trying to take them back.
Trust in Me. Have the faith that I will take care of all your needs, your problems and your trials. Problems with the kids? Put them on My list. Problem with finances? Put it on My list. Problems with your emotional roller coaster? For My sake, put it on My list. I want to help you. All you have to do is ask.   4. LEAVE IT ALONE:
Don't wake up one morning and say, "Well, I'm feeling much stronger now,I think I can handle it from here." Why do you think you are feeling stronger now? It's simple. You gave Me your burdens and I'm taking care of them. I also renew your strength and cover you in my peace. Don't you know that if I give you these problems back, you will be right back where you started? Leave them with Me and forget about them. Just let Me do my job.   5. TALK TO ME:
I want you to forget a lot of things. Forget what was making you crazy.
Forget the worry and the fretting because you know I'm in control. But there's one thing I pray you never forget. Please, don't forget to talk to Me - OFTEN! I love YOU! I want to hear your voice. I want you to include Me in on the things going on in your life. I want to hear you talk about your friends and family. Prayer is simply you having a conversation with Me. I want to be your dearest friend.   6. HAVE FAITH:
I see a lot of things from up here that you can't see from where you are. Have faith in Me that I know what I'm doing. Trust Me; you wouldn't want the view from My eyes. I will continue to care for you, watch over you, and meet your needs. You only have to trust Me. Although I have a much  bigger task than you, it seems as if you have so much trouble just doing  your simple part. How hard can trust be?   7. SHARE:
You were taught to share when you were only two years old. When did you forget? That rule still applies. Share with those who are less fortunate than you. Share your joy with those who need encouragement. Share your laughter with those who haven't heard any in such a long time. Share your tears with those who have forgotten how to cry. Share your faith with those who have none.   8. BE PATIENT:
I managed to fix it so in just one lifetime you could have so many diverse experiences. You grow from a child to an adult, have children, change jobs many times, learn many trades, travel to so many places, meet thousands of people, and experience so much. How can you be so impatient then when it takes Me a little longer than you expect to handle something on My to-do-list? Trust in My timing, for My timing is perfect. Just because I created the entire universe in only six days, everyone thinks I should always rush, rush, rush.   9. BE KIND:
Be kind to others, for I love them just as much as I love you. They may not dress like you, or talk like you, or live the same way you do, but I still love you all. Please try to get along, for My sake. I created each of you different in some way. It would be too boring if you were all identical. Please, know I love each of your differences.   10. LOVE YOURSELF:
As much as I love you, how can you not love yourself? You were created by me for one reason only -- to be loved, and to love in return. I am a God  of Love. Love Me. Love your neighbors. But also love yourself. It makes My heart ache when I see you so angry with yourself when things go wrong. You are very precious to me. Don't ever forget......   Note: I rec'd this from a friend and I have no idea who wrote it, but I was so touched by it, I hope that you
will be blessed by it too.   Rather than focus upon the  thorns of life, smell the roses and count your blessings]]> Buzznet cunfused 2005-10-29T08:16:46Z